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10 January 2011 @ 11:47 am
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This snowy January day marked the beginning of my last semester in Lethbridge College. Well... Not really. I failed one class for sure and probably another. I've not been able to bring myself to check out the official grades. I get that nasty sick feeling in my stomach when I even think about it.

This also is the crunch time to find a new place to live, an internship and a real job. I have no idea what I'm going to do. Fuuuuck, feeling really hopeless right now.

I don't know what to do now. To cope I'm just keeping to myself, drinking a lot and being really really anti-social. I'm 22 years old, how is it that I haven't grown up yet? I still live with my parents, for fuck's sake.

I joked around the other day with a co-worker about just working hard enough to save like 500 dollars so we can buy a 9mm handgun and blow our faces off. I don't know if that's such a joke anymore.
 
 
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